Many moons ago, my then boyfriend challenged me to share my “wisdom” with others by creating a YouTube video about “anything.” “Just go for it,” he said. First of all, wisdom seemed like a strong word for something I was supposed to deliver, but second of all… I have stage fright. Well, kinda. I mean, I’ve been working on being more comfortable speaking to people in groups… in the spotlight. I like to think I may even be able to fool people into believing I’m comfortable as I stand there naked and vulnerable to anyone who might think I suck. The pitiful truth is, I’m just not. At least, not yet. But, I pushed my boundaries and made the video. It’s posted here if you want to take a look.
I still can’t believe I made it, posted it and then proceeded to share it on this here blog. I guess the boundary pushing thing is gaining momentum. Honestly, I still find it hard to listen to my own voice, let alone watch myself. I’m sure there’s plenty to analyze there. The point is, I did it and it wasn’t even horrible. People actually watched the video!
So, guess who has a YouTube channel? Yep, I’ve made more videos. I like it. I have a lot of fun sharing what I know and people seem to be getting something from what I share. I actually like filming and editing too! So, it’s a win win. Most importantly, I’m valuing my own voice and that feels good. It’s still a work in progress (as am I), but my video-ing skills are definitely better than when I started. Here I am talking about my channel.
I’m so grateful to that boyfriend (who became my husband) for seeing something in me that I was afraid to see in myself. I knew I had something, but sharing means being vulnerable and being vulnerable means you can be hurt and well …that’s painful! I’m a sensitive: one who feels much. That’s my superpower, but it can also make for a challenging existence. What I can say without a doubt is that I’m proud of myself AND I think that little step is going to lead to BIG things.
Maybe you can step out of your comfort zone this week and do something you’ve been wanting to do for a long time. Remember: